OH THE HILARITY!!! OMG!!! If you are any friend of mine, u must read the Hamel manga!!! I don't think I've ever read anything so funny!!! And there's also a really good story!!! READ HAMEL!!! U must read!!! I command u to read!!!

So yeah, I just wanted to share the VoH love. There was no other purpose to this post...

Alas, I do live. Sorry for the long absence. I was either too lazy or too busy to update. You can guess which was mostly the case... If I'm writing strangely, I'm sorry but I just finished a paper not too long ago... And yes that does affect my writing... makes me write like an old woman or something... someone from one of them history books...

So anyway, what has my life been like this past month? Let's see... I finally declared my major!!! XD XD I'm majoring in Math -- Computer Science, B.A. So let's see if I like this computer science stuff... I've never taken computer science classes before but if I do like these classes then I'll change my major to Computer Science, otherwise I'll remain a math major... There was a time a few weeks ago when I considered not majoring in math since I doubted that I could do well in the upper division math classes... I'm also not too crazy about math. Well I do like doing my math homework but I won't, like, buy number puzzles at amazon.com and spend my free time solving them... And also, my biggest reason for liking math is because I'm good at it. Math has always been something that I've been confident doing, believing that I could solve math problems no matter how difficult they were. But then I wondered what it would be like to lose this confident and find out that I'm not really good at math when I start taking the harder math classes. It scared me. Then I got even more scared when I didn't do as well on my first math exam this quarter. Granted, the grade I got wasn't that bad (B-), I didn't study for the test, and I stayed up the whole night before writing a paper, but it still scared me nonetheless...

But then I realized that I was just being a stupid idiot who was afraid of actually working hard in order to do well on a math test... God people are going to kill me... Yeah I probably sound really stupid and conceited right now... But anyway, I wanted to write this down because it's what has been bothering me for a while now... If I'm sound stupid, lazy, conceited, whatever then I guess I am stupid, lazy, and conceited... It's the truth and I can't change the truth...

So yeah... Guess I'll go hide now...

So how has everyone been? I've been busier than usual since I last updated: two midterms and a quiz all on Halloween then a paper due the next day and then another paper due today. Argh, school sucks...

So anyway, I guess you're all wondering what I did for Halloween. Well after all my tests, I went home to finish my paper before night came. Then at around eight o'clock, Jessica and I went to Geisel (the library) to watch a silent film, Nosferatu, with live music. I asked 'Becca to come along, but she was doing HWK (XP Becca). So the film was interesting in the beginning because the music was cool, but then after twenty minutes or so, the movie started to get boring. And it wasn't the out-dated technology of the film and bothered me, it was the slow moving plot. I mean, there would be ten minutes or so of two people talking to each other about something that didn't relate to the over-arching plot of the film at all. And then there were scenes of just some people walking or carriages moving across the screen. Basically, the scenes lacked substance and ceased to hold my attention, probably because the audience was supposed to be dazzled just by the fact that the pictures were moving. Well, I'm spoiled by modern technology so Ha!

And then there was one weird scene when a biologist was examing a "flesh-eating plant" / venus fly trap with his colleagues. He fed the plant a fly, the plant slowly ate the fly, and then he doctor turned to the audience with this serious expressiona and said, "It's like a vampire." And I was like how? Why do I care? Basically, it was a very weird and random scene. I still don't know what it's purpose was...

But even though the movie was boring, I'm glad that I came. I mean, I saw a slient film! How cool is that! And then the instruments were cool. Since we came to a later show, most of the musicians had already left so they let the audience use the instruments during the film. XP I especially the "ferryman" (I think that's what it was called). It was like a box with two sticks sticking out of the side and the top and when you put your hand by the sticks, the thing wailed like a female opera singer. It was cool. I got to play with it after the show. XD Yeah...

And then after the movie, we were supposed to head into the forest and tell scary stories but the other people didn't show up. 'Guess they chickened out. Jessica still wanted to go though, crazy woman heading into the dark forest 11pm at night with just the two of us. And people commit suicide in that forrest (Which is part of the reason why we chose to tell scary stories there, besides it being completely dark and scary)!!! So yeah...

Afterwards, we were looking for something else to do, so then we just decided to look for the entrances to the tunnels under UCSD. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, every university has tunnels underneath in case of emergencies or if a student protest got out of hand and the teachers had to flee, just like duing the sixties. Rumor has it that UCSD also has these tunnels but all the tunnels are sealed up now since you never know what condition they are in after never being used for decades. If you entered the tunnels now and were caught, you risk being suspended or expelled from UCSD. So yeah, looking for the tunnels was arguably much scarier than telling scary stories in the forest. But Jessica was persistent and so we searched. We were never going to actually enter the tunnels anyway. We're not that crazy. But we must have looked very funny. Jessica was wearing mostly all black and she had her hood up so she looked like a ninja or a robber or something. Then she was sneaking about being all stealthy... I just followed.

So then we checked out the areas that the entrances were reputed to be. We found some suspicious manholes, and then we decided to sneak into HSS (A building) because there was supposed to be an entrance to the tunnels in the basement of HSS. And so we snuck in, went to the basement using the stairs, and then looked through random doors to see if they were suspicious. If someone saw us, we could have just said that we were looking for the bathroom and there was a bathroom in the basement so it wouldn't be too suspicious. Plus buildings at UCSD are public buildings so we weren't exactly trespassing... At least, that's what I kept on telling myself...

So then we eventually came across a certain corridor and Jessica still wanted to explore. I was starting to get scared but I went anyway. AND THEN WE FOUND THEM, the entrances to the tunnels beneath UCSD. It wasn't too hard to find either. The entrance was only a wire fence with locks and stuff. You could see down the tunnels and the lights were actually still on. So yeah, it was fun sneaking around everywhere. Jessica took a few pictures too... I should probably get some of them from her. But it was a fun Halloween, very very enjoyable indeed. Once we got home, it was like 2am or something then we just crashed.

And that was my fun oh so wonderful Halloween!!! XD

And yes, I am aware that that isn't anime or anything relating to anime. *Shock*

So what has been going on these last few days... Nothing new. Except that I think I'm obsessed with My Chemical Romance now. I can't stop listening to their songs!!! I'm addicted!!! (As if I didn't have enough obsessions before...) But other than that, nothing else has changed in my life, which basically revolves around HWK, class, and work right now. Oh yeah, I realized something very important yesterday... Last night, I was doing my math HWK, and I was having difficulty solving a problem, then I thought: "That's ok. After this, I can read Black Cat manga, and then everything will be good. I can enjoy myself and relax..." And then I realized that I would have more HWK to do the next day, and the same with the day after that, and the day after that, and so on forever until eternity and beyond all time... It made me really sad. And then, for the first time in my life, I wished that I lived during the Middle Ages in Europe or in some other backward area where all you need to worry about was doing your chores, obeying your elders, eating, sleeping, and going bathroom. Why do we need civilization anyway?!! What has it done for us?!! (These are rhetorical questions by the way). And yeah, now that I look back, I see that that was a very stupid wish,one that I would regret within seconds if it ever came true... Okay, so we need to do our work and our HWK if we ever want to get anywhere in the world, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN WE SHOULD HAVE TO DO THIS MUCH WORK!!! Argh, it's so sad... I pity all students around the world who have to deal with HWK everyday. And it's even sadder that I WANT to do HWK, go to class, and go to work. Not that I enjoy it, but I want the good things that would come from doing HWK and going to work. God, there're so many people here who never go to class or do their HWK. It's because of my pride!!! That's what it is!!! Argh...

So yeah, I'm surprised I was able to write about so much... I guess there is some kind of drama going on in my life... But then this entry became more of a rant than a blog... Oh, who cares! Now u people can come and laugh at the pathetic-ness of my life. But it's all good anyway, as long as I never find out... XD